I deactivated my Facebook because I chickened out like a wuss. This is me, pulling away from someone just because I saw this possibility that I may be falling head over heels for him. And when I say him, I mean my new loving boyfriend who never forgets to assure me of how much he adores me. Yet I decided to vanish without explanations like the real asshole I am. I haven’t even said anything, to anyone, just because I think they wouldn’t understand. They wouldn’t understand how I feel. And I know it’s unfair for me to act this way. He doesn’t deserve what I’m putting him through, but my feelings.. It frightens me to death. I even hesitate to tell him that I love him, not because it’s not true, but because I’m scared.I’m running away because there’s a huge chance that it’s love, and it’s scaring the living shit out of me. I guess I’m scared to be attached to someone, and end up with unfulfilled expectations and disappointments. Or maybe I’m just over-thinking again. I do love him, really I do. I’m not like this just because I want to, this contradiction within me is tearing me apart. It’s a battle against myself, and it seems like a hopeless case. I have so much love I’d want to give him and I want to do so much with him, but I’m still running.. Because nobody ever breaks my heart. I’m little miss heartless. And I guess I wanted it to stay that way.